Double life:)

Double life - we live in the medical special needs world with a son whose needs require meticulous care and attention. AND we live in the "normal" world with Nikki,Amber,Billy,and Megan trying to give them every opportunity.It is hard to be all that you need to be.AND be husband and wife!

 : Being a mom - as some point in being a mom you realize that your life becomes nothing about YOUR life but about taking EVERYONE else around you...taking care of your self quickly gets put to the bottom of the list. Being a mom is such a joy, loving your children and husband is precious, so most of the time you gladly put everyone else's needs first...but man it can be exhausting.
I am the one to go to the appointments, handle the insurance, medications, supplies, etc.  Which is totally fine but it has its moments of feeling isolated and too much pressure of being the only one "qualified" to make decisions regarding Ryan's care.

I CAN do this it just need to be my way and everyone needs to conform to that way;that way we are all on the same page.

I MISS THESE DAYS!!!!